closing... maybe? kind of?

so this whole blogging thing

as much as i can has been great for me.

i look back at posts, and i laugh, get sad, get embarrassed- whatever. 

it is really nice for me to reflect

on my emotions, my (grammer) writing skills and haha STYLE. even

going through last years outfits, i'm like oh gosh

why did i ever post that? how cliche. but it is what it is.

as time has passed, i have realized that i must move forward

in blogging for my other projects and stop using this as my

creative outlet/diary. it has really helped me

organize my ideas and now i think it might be time to move on.

this will probably start in September.. .le sad but

le excited for new projects and ventures. 

i hope you (yes all 5 of you!) see and read my

newer blog/website that i will most likely post later as i

start getting fancier with my posts.

xo 

pak

6:40 AM on a saturday

i'm typically a morning person

and i've decided to try and get back on track.

i woke up pretty early today

to come and open doors at work and then 

to have a solo hike at runyon. all done before 9AM today.

pretty excited to get a lot done this weekend.

chores, errands, relax. its nice to have a weekend where we

can finally do all this! :) 

i had a breakfast treat (beard papas, portos,) almost

everyday this week and i need to 

constantly remind myself that 

diet is 80% and exercise is 20%.

FML. i love food.

no wait, jk

i love ice cream, desserts and anything sweet.

happiest weekend!

xo

pak

breakFACE.

the first breakfast sandwich is

pretty simple. egg, turkey bacon and cheez. 

my version of a mcmuffin. still not as good as mcDz.

need some improvements fasho.

the second picture is bacon, sunny side up eggs

and quinoa. I don't think I cooked it very well

but I hope it starts being a 

normal staple in our pantry. woohoo!

happy friday!

xo

pak

wuhduhfuh.

went to court today.

being a grown up sucks.

my mom sucks too.

at life.

this week isn't going to smoothly. and i'm not

happy about it!! 

on the upside, i've been tanning in 

our parking lot during lunch and my legs are looking

quite brown. yay!

xo

brown legged pak.

trying to be not extremely flabby. i will be ok with just flabby.

so i've been trying to go to the gym.

and by that, i've gone twice BUT i did go hiking

at runyon which def kicked my butt.

remember my fat belly picture i took in May?

well i took a picture after ONE session at the gym

(running for 30 min, squats and weights) and i

can already feel and see the difference. it's been

really hard to eat clean along with going to the gym

especially with both sides of parents

always asking us to go eat

kbbq or something yummy for dinner.

i have started to detox, with some (heehee)

cheating.. i can't not eat sweets! ugh! but

i feel like i'm finally on the right track. 

can YOU see the difference?

i hope you can tell the bottom

one is my recent pic. 

i feel better and have more energy already.

i need to focus on continuing the clean eating

and exercize. i am SURE i have not lost any weight but really- i'm

not focused on the number on the scale. i'm

really focused on how my clothes fit,

how my muscles start to form and how i can loose

the softness that my body has become.

i guess its satisfying to know that

i'm on the way to healthy!

HAPPY FRIDAY!

xo

pak

point of view.

my new acne booties! 

my new favorite booties to replace my janky ass R&B newburys.

i've officially broken them in, although one thing

i'm not too fond of is that they're a little heavy. 

the R&B newburys are light and easy while these

give my legs a little work out.

ugh monday is such a drag...

below are the POINT OF VIEWS i've been 

taking these days.

xo

pak

feelin that ZEN.

in a world where we are in a constant

state of need, where there is always

something to lament about, its always good to remind

ourselves of what we have blessed with and all that is right.

xo

pak

be a happier, healthier human.

never touch anything with just half your heart.

be present.

be endlessly loving and compassionate towards others.

confront any challenging situation

 first with a deep breath.

wander.

remember that your own happiness

 and comfort comes

above all other things.

before reacting, be understanding.

remember what is important.

get to know yourself and love yourself. 

take things at your own pace.

acknowledge your mistakes and apologize. 

realize that life is too short to be mad or sad. fix your mistakes.

if you can't fix them, know you did your best trying.

never be ashamed to ask for help.

do you what you love.

remember that you have a choice, to find joy

in life and to love who you want in life. 

don't forget about your freedom of choosing

happiness.

xo

pak

summa summa summa time

finally summer. kind of..

its freaking raining today, as if LA is trying so hard to be NY

or something. whatevs. totally not into it.

lately i've been working like craaay. 7-7 shifts if you know what i mean.

i guess i'm keeping my sanity by breaking my rule

and shopping all the sales. i mean, it IS sale time

isnt it? aka new rag and bone jacket, new rag and bone booties(s),

new rag and bone chambray, new rag and bone ERRTHANG.

oh and acne booties. WOO!! 

i know. its a little much but to justify anything, its only because

i was super in the dumps about my job and

my position here at work. i've learned that patience is the key

to my success and only time will

tell. its funny how my parents still keep such a 

personal level of how they employ me and Jane. 

on another note, i've been really sad to find out

my very good friend Carly has been hurt.

it is so depressing and disappointing to know that we live

in a world that doesn't accept all relationships in every form. i don't

know a couple who loves more than Carly and Hanna.

anyways, my prayers and good feelings/powers 

are sent to C&H in this hard time.

xo

pak

its been awhile..

hasn't it.

pak